A chance for better days.... a personal note

How ironic is it that I turn on the computer and the first thing that I hear is a song about how everyone deserves love and yet I am talking on the phone to a man that I am strangely attracted to who definitely does not seem to believe that and for sure will not be offering anyone that including himself or me despite his or my wishes. When the conversation ends the next thing I hear is "A Chance For Better Days". Again ironically enough there will be better days but not for the same reasons the Goo Goo Dolls proclaim.
Since I believe everything is a learning process and I don't care for this situation, it must have something to teach me. So I think to myself, I say " self what is it here that bothers you so much? Is it the anger in the people you see, the dishonesty that runs ramped, the privacy/secretiveness that attempts to shield and isolate us from each other, or maybe its the sheer lack of respect shown for ourselves and then others? And then my next question is: how much of that directly applies to me and not just my sympathy for those that my heart goes out to because of the struggles that they face? But isn't it those things exactly what makes us bond together closer, what make us need each other all the more?
Then I realize .... this man like many in my past has absolutely no idea what is really important in life. He is unsure of almost everything about himself, what he wants, and most importantly; he sits by paralyzed by fear, hurting everyone around him because he is to afraid to make a choice to do anything!
I am not sure why people like this seam to seek me out, besides in my way of wanting to help I become an enabler. However this is the time I learn to draw the line between sympathy, compassion and what I can change.
And my lesson is that while although I should and do still have lots of sympathy and compassion for those that struggle, I am ultimately not responsible in anyway to lead them to happiness. Nor am I responsible if they never find said happiness. I must admit it makes me a little sad to know that are so many that feel so trapped that will never make that move. SIGH!

The truth about deception!

Is that there is always some level of honesty involved in it. Your not shocked are you? I mean really I am soooo sick of people that can't just be honest. I mean mostly with themselves, and sure it would be ever so appreciated by the rest of us whom are forced to deal with those kinds of people on a daily basis. My God man, I tell you the world is not out to get you!!!!! In fact I am not sure any one in the whole wide world even cares about what you care about. Actually I am sure no one cares. Now get over yourself(s) and your "stuff" and move on. Stop being selfish and worry about the greater good!

AMEN!